Wall-hitting, Computer-smashing Mood!! ~"~

So... for most of you guys who know me... you know that I am a pretty even-tempered person... I believe I am very easy to get along and don't have drastic unpleasant mood-swings.... Even when I do show some negative moods, I usually forget about them within one minute's time...

However, for some reason, today, I have been feeling like just hitting my head on the wall or smashing my computer.... Why, you ask me? Nothing extremely serious.... but just the added-up effects of a lot of 不順利 small hassles that pulls at me and irritates me without end.... computer problems big and small both at home and at work... trouble with shipments... overseas sales representatives evading responsibilities and pushing them on me, etc....

I won't be able to list out really well the details of all these issues... First because it would take too much time to explain those small details clearly; secondly, even if I do list them out, they would all seem like very petty, insignificant matters that shouldn't cause me to be in such a bad mood... Honestly, I have held-up to these things before and it's not like they have only occured today... But for some insane, unknown reason, I have been in this bad mood the whole day...

I keep feeling like picking a fight with someone... but knowing I can't and my "reasonable superego" not really wanting to... I keep reminding myself that these are really no big deal, and that I should be more "professional" and not let these things affect me and damage my good relationship with my colleagues who have always been very helpful and friendly to me and who has nothing to do with these frustrations I'm having... But when I talk to them or they to me, and when I try to control the negative or sarcastic tone in my voice and try to smile at them, I just feel soooooooo pretentious..... Because the smile is not sincere.... It's like the smile had been plastered on my face with some very bad glue and it can fall off and show the nasty ugly face / mood underneath any second.... I guess that just worsens my mood... = =+

It's just very weird, this bad mood... especially when we had just enjoyed a surprise long weekend caused by a Typhoon break last Friday, and I had some good relaxing time (watching lots of TV and going to 士林夜市 to fulfill my craving for 仙人掌綿綿冰店's 綿綿卡布奇諾...).... Really boggles my mind why I am like this... But the news that the shipment leakage problem was pretty serious is really, really not helping... = =+

(Note: for you guys out there, it is not my period, and you can save the stupid, insensitive, sexist remarks / jokes.)